In His Will.

Dear God,

Thank you. Thank you first off for answering my prayers, and giving my heart the message from you, of what I needed to do. Even though it was far from easy, and even though it gave me temporary heartache I know deep down in me that it was what you wanted me to do. You know me, and you know how much my heart hurts. You know how much I over think things and you know how much I'm willing to overcome in order to stay in the pathway your directing me through. In my head I'm running a race. Yesturday I was at the hardest part of it. The hill. The mile stone. I fought back and forth with myself and at one point I couldn't tell which was up and which was down. My body was exhasted. My eyes were swollen. My heart was throbing. And you kept me standing, you kept me on my feet when I didn't want to keep going. When I prayed for peace, you gave me peace. When I prayed for comfort, you gave me comfort. When I prayed that you would heal me and fill the space in my heart, that empty space no longer cried out in agony. So thank you, for assuring me that I'm where I'm supposed to be. And when my thoughts get carried away in guilt and remorse I tell myself that You are still in control over my life. No matter how crazy and difficult it is right now, your still in control. I know that I am where I need to be in my life. As much as it causes me sadness when I think about how much it's changed, it causes me joy when I remember how much you love me and how much you care about me with all that goes on in my life. Me. The creater of the universe cares about me and what makes me feel sad and broken. But I have faith. And I know that your plans for me are greater than I can imagine right now because you know what is better for me.
So thank you. Thank you answering my prayers.
I already feel stronger, knowing that I'm in your will.
Now I'll be waiting, praying and keeping my eyes and my heart open for the next instructions you give me.

Love, Your Princess

Growing Up

Trust in God.

That's what I keep telling myself. Just trust in Him and He'll lead me where I need to go.

These past few weeks I've been struggling with this feeling, this feeling that's been building up inside of me. Pestering me. A feeling that I felt like I should listen too. Like my life was going to change, I didn't know or have any idea how much it would change, all I knew was that I should be ready.

The feeling continued to grow, until it was no longer a stomach ache but a heart ache. It conqured my thoughts and distracted me from everything.

Right now, I thank God for that feeling he put inside my heart. Even though I didn't understand and even though I doubted that feeling, I'm walking the path that God wants me to walk through.
It was hard, yes. But it was worth it.
And now that I look back at how I handled everything, I'm proud of myself for following my heart, and listening to God. I can physically and mentally feel Him working in my life. And for that, I trust Him with everything I know.